THIS IS WHAT IT ALL COMES DOWN TO.

i called the supervisor of the pca company (which i use to assist me) earlier because my pca had went home because he said that he left something on the stove and he had to quick run home to take it off the stove and he hadn't returned back to my apartment (when he CLAIMED that he lived only 10 minutes away). the supervisor asked me what day the meeting was and i looked on my calendar and i seen that it isn't until next wednesday. the supervisor said that she thinks that she's gonna attend the meeting. i have a feeling that the meeting is gonna end up being a meeting where everyone tries to change my mind about moving to new york and showing me that it's "too much work" to move to new york or some bullshit. if that's gonna be the case- i don't give a shit, i remember an ils worker telling me once that I ULTIMATELY have the say in where i live and if i wanna live in new york- then they should have to help me find resources on how to make it happen. i don't have any support here in minnesota.. my mom NOR any of my other family REALLY give a shit about me.. they only do some things because they feel like they should. NOT because they REALLY want to. i want MY own fuckin life. i'm not interested in finding anyone here.. i don't have the patience OR desire.